A

i'm waiting for a friend to go online so we could chat a little. haven't talked to A for a while and come to think of it, i have no idea what we could talk about. he's in new york, i live in another continent. he's married and i'm unattached. he's working and i'm still bumming. what could we possibly talk about... the old times? that's what we talked about the last time...my nonexistent lovelife? naah, he would just tease me to death...his life now? it would be hard for me to relate...but we've been friends for 10 years so it wouldn't be really hard to find a common point, hopefully.

A is like a brother to me but not quite. he's my guy bestfriend but not in the same way as my girl bestfriends. we used to be movie dates when he was still here, whether with girlfriend or not. we used to eat out a lot and most of the time, i'd pay for the food, he'd pay for the movie. if we run out of cash, we'd just have dinner at home, with the food his mom cooked for us and we'd just watch movies at his home. i'm his friend insecure girlfriends were jealous of. but there was nothing more than the friendship we had. i didn't wish it to be more than that, neither did he. even if he's been away for 3 years now, i still miss him. i still miss what we used to do, the fun we used to have and the friendship. but i wish him all the best.

i wish we could rekindle the friendship we had, even if we went our different paths...if not now, maybe soon.

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another transferred entry from my other blog (jan 8, 2005)